on 21st July 2007, my youngest sis got married and i produced this special vid for her.. she flew to UK last week to continue her masters there. i miss her so much and i wish her all the best.. luv ya, mysha!!!

enjoy the vid!

-masnie-

dear muslim readers and friends,

-masnie-

last month was the month of weddings. my sister got married, my BFF got married, my friends got married, and my friend's friends got married!! even my hubby's ex-girlfriend got married!! yikes!

yup. she was his 1st love in high school back in 1993 i think. she dumped him in 1994. my hubby really loved her.. i can tell. who doesn't remember his/her 1st love right?

anyway, this girl contacted my hubby and told him tht she's getting married. she wanted to see him and give him the invitation card. wtf?!!

i know tht i shudnt be worried or feel threaten since she's getting married. but the fact tht after all this years.. she broke his heart.. now she wants to meet up with my guy who was her ex-bf. and the tot of them wud be reminiscing their sweet memories while they were together.. aaarggh!! it hurts..

my hubby did share the sweet memories tht they had to me.. i really didnt wanna listen but i was trying to be supportive and caring.. stupid me.. and now their memories are haunting me.. *sob*

they met up and she brought her fiance. i didnt ask schatz anything abt it when he returned. whatever! at first schatz was eager to go to her wedding without bringing me along.. later, he wanted to bring me.. i didnt wanna go and i questioned him on why he wanted to go so badly? hello?!! she dumped you!! 

am i feeling jealous? i guess so.. who wudnt? i told schatz tht if he loves me, he wont go or even keep in touch wz tht girl.. and so he didnt..

i trust schatz but i dont trust the desperate girls out there. they dont care if the target is someone else's husband... i've heard stories of someone wife with someone's else husband.. ntahla.. mintak dijauhkan..

 -masnie-

i was tagged by elly.. here goes.. 

Bold the statements that are true to you.
Italicize the statements that you WISH are true.
Leave the fibs alone.

I do not watch tv these days - CSI must watch!
I wear glasses or contact lenses. - ever since i was 12.
I love to play video games. - my favourite pastime!
I have tried marijuana - i dont get high..
I have been in a threesome. - eeewww..
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I have changed mentally over the last year. - who doesn't?
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I curse. - not so good at it.. but maybe i'm too nice lor..
I'm totally smart. - it's important to me
I've broken someone's bones - tak baik tau
I'm paranoid sometimes. - who doesn't?
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now. - who doesn't?
I love sushi. - when it's fresh.
I talk really, really fast. - i'm quiet
I have long hair. - my hair is thick. hard to manage
I have lost money in Las Vegas. - i dont gamble
I have at least one sibling. - i have 3 sisters
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller ID. - xdela sampai mcmtu.. Caller ID is important.
I like the way I look. - i'm big and not fashionable
I am usually pessimistic. - i'm optimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings. - biasala pompuan!
I have a hidden talent. - only schatz knows this talent of mine! muahaha!
I'm always hyper. - i wish.
I have a lot of friends. - love them all!
I am currently single. - got married in 2004!
I have pecked someone of the same sex. - what do you mean by 'pecked'?
I enjoy talking on the phone - not really. .
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop. - i'd rather stay at home and play video games!
Enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat. - foooooooood!!!
I don't hate anyone.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother - i love my mom!
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God - we are His khalifah
I watch MTV on a daily basis…
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months. - i don't drink. alcohol is bad!
I've rejected someone before - too many times.. sorry ek?
I want to have children in the future… - Uwaaaa!!!!! trying so hard lor!!!
I have changed a diaper before - never got the chance to do so.. 
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything. - cats!! dusts!!
I have a lot to learn - tuntut ilmu sampai ke China.. 
I'm shy around members of the opposite sex - i'm a shy person
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past. - tak baik lor.
I have tried alcohol before
I own the South Park movie - funny cartoon!! know the songs!!
I would die for my best friend
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all. 
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it. - comel and very funny!!!
I am happy at this moment. - to have schatz around with me
I'm obsessed with girls… 
I study for tests most of the time. 
I am comfortable with who I am right now. - i need to be a better person
I have more than just my ears pierced
I walk barefoot whenever i can. - not much for shoezies.
I have jumped off a bridge. ….
I love sea turtles. - amazing creature 
I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup. 
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream….
I'm proficient in a musical instrument. 
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules…..
I went college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love kisses. - just with schatz lor
I fall for the worst people… - you'll finally find somone who fits you
I adore bright colours.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I don't know why the hell I just did this stupid thing. - i dont think this is stupid
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snake's slither
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've written in.
I can't stick to a diet…. - i don't diet in the first place.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions. - it's the norm.
I have jazz in my blood. - to slow for me.. i love fast and loud music 
Climbing trees is a brilliant pasttime. - budak2 boleh la panjat.. ni dah bini org dah!
I wear a toe ring.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with
I am a caffeine junkie…. - nescafe
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions. .
I will collect anything and the more nonsensical the better.
I'm an artist. - in my own right.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy. - who doesn't?
I am an adrenaline junkie.

now i'm tagging you!!!! do it or else!!

-masnie-

schatz and i celebrated our 3rd anniversary last month. and we finally decided that we're going for it!!

it's goin to be expensive and painful. yup.. painful!!

just to share...

22nd May - 1st appointment with Dato' Dr Hamid Arshat

Dr Hamid interviewed us with direct questions immediately as we sat down in his room. i guess it has been a routine for him. he jotted down everything tht he asked as nil considering that most of the question we answered no.

he did bring up abt my weight. he claimed that i was overweight. *dush* that's heartaching to hear. he told us that as a person gain weight, the fertility will decrease.

later, i had to go thru an ultrasound scan. i got to see my insides!! the Dr said that it was normal. that's a relief..

the Dr gave me fertility pills, fat burner pills and pain killers!! the pain killers were to be taken before and after xray... i started to feel scared and worried from tht day onwards.. takutnya...

26th May - 2nd appointment

i was supposed to do an xray in KL and see Dr Hamid afterwards. that morning i was told tht i had to sit for a test (KPLI). my in-laws insisted tht i sit for the test and set the appointment another day.

and so i did. as i was struggling with the test, schatz had to go thru a 'test' too.. ;p schatz told me all abt it when he picked me up from SMK Cheras. he set a new xray appointment since the clinic closes at 1pm tht day.

28th May - 3rd appointment

had to go to the office early in the morning to settle a few work and informed my boss that i had to take leave tht day. then i took the lrt to go to jalan raja laut where the clinic for xray is - Daya X-Ray Centre. it was raining heavily tht day. met up wz schatz at the lrt bandaraya station.

as i entered the clinic i took the pain killers immediately and started to panic.. how painful will it be? will it be on-the-spot pain, soon-afterwards pain or continuos pain.. schatz was supportive and tried to calm me down.. oh! the agony of waiting for your name to be called. when is it goin to be over!?!

the xray is called HYSTEROSALPINGOGRAM aka HSG xray.

i started to have doubts on getting pregnant. can i endure the pain? being pregnant wont be easy.. you'll go thru painful, uncomfortable and hard period for 9 months!! i'm scared shit!!! but i want a baby badly..

suddenly , i was called to go into this room to change and to lay down on a  special table with a large machine on top.. this was it...

an indian nurse assisted me thru the process. i had to spread my legs for them to put a tube in me. the tube will inject some sort of liquid so tht the fallopian tube can be seen clearly when they do the xray.

it hurt a bit when they put the tube inside. an indian Dr came in afterwards to do the xray. i had to turn to the right and left. the xray taken from 3 angles. it started to hurt.. oh no.. i wanted it to be over fast!! it took abt 10 mins or so..

after the ordeal, schatz & i walked to sogo where he parked the car. it was quite far. as we reached the entrance, i started to feel the pain. i quickly find a place to sit down. we ate sushi king and ice cream there. i wanted to go home and lay down!!!

as i woke up, i tot the pain would be gone.. nope! sakitnya!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i had to pray in sitting position. i can barely walk.. but we had an appointment wz Dr Hamid in the afternoon. so i had to walk slowly to get to the car and to the clinic.

Dr Hamid looked at the xrays and told me that there was no blockage whatsoever iat my fallopian tube. it was normal. schatz felt happy but i wasn't.. if everything is normal then why am i not pregnant yet? there's must be something wrong with me or something!!!

but the Dr. told us to keep on trying and set another appointment if i were have my period. if so they may need to look at my eggs.. i dont wanna imagine how they will do it!!

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every single day pasts since the visit to the clinic and i still dont feel any changes.. i feel tht i have to make it happen as i dont wanna go thru anymore painful procedures... when they say they wanted to see my eggs, i'm sure they will stick a big needle in me!!! aaaahhhh!!! scary!!!!!

peeps... pls pray for me..

-masnie- 

My Currents

state: anxious and determined
looking forward to: get pregnant
task: create flash animation
lesson learnt: no pain no gain
new: view on life 
lost: courage
updated recently: neopets

a monster appeared in the mysterious temple!!! he's bigger and tougher than the last bug! i fought and lost to tht huge thing!! arggh!!!

anyway, it seems tht the lost isle is inhabited with enormous petpetpets.. what's that? heheh.. my neopets can have their own pets called petpets.. a smaller version of pets.. and the petpets can also have their own petpetpets.. tiny pets.. very tiny.. awesome huh?!

anyway, i got a battle to win.. but it's gonna take time and neopoints.. bummer! rahmysa is taking some rest now after being beaten up by tht stupid bug!! kesian.. he needs to recover completely for his next fight. wish us luck!!

-masnie-

My Currents

state: loser!
looking forward to: kick some ass!
task: create flash animation
lesson learnt: keep on fighting!
new: obsession
lost: to a big bug!!
updated recently: neopets

one of the thing i love playing neopets is taking part in their seasonal plots. new plot is here!! Journey to the Lost Isle plot. this time i wanna share my experience of doing this plot. heheh..

first, i had to read Professor Hugo Fairweather's Journal and the Comic.

then i cleared The Deck in the Puzzle! there are three levels to complete.  easy la.. the puzzle looked like this.

i have to arrange the stuff in the box provided. did it!!! as the level got higher it got tougher.. u can get more guidance here.

after completing this puzzle, i had to equipped my pet rahmysa the Kyrii with battle equipments and send him to fight the Ravenous Monster.

Beginning HP: 15hp     HP Increase per Win: 1.5hp     List of Weapons:       Illusens  Mud Mixture,       Slorg Slime,       Snow Mudball,       Slime Potion

if you fight it numerous times, you get more points. i only manage to fight him abt 9 times.. the monster had left the battle arena!! i wish i had more time to kick his ass!

the Comic is updated from time to time. it's important to read it bcos the plot relates to it.

today, a new puzzle is out!! it seems that the travelers had found a mysterious stone temple. and i had to find the combination code to open the door!! this puzzle was really tough!! i finished it in an hour or so.. 3 levels to complete. the puzzle looked like this..

woohoo! can't wait for the next adventure. for more plot guide visit here.

the only person i know who shares my kind of addiction with neopets is my sista, kak mal. she's much more expert and richer than me in this neopet world. i guess time is the key to gain more cool stuff, rewards, money, and etc. i dont really have the time. i can usually go online at nite for abt 3-5 hours. bummer!

neopets rules!!!!

-masnie-

My Currents

state: excited!
looking forward to: do the next step in the plot
task: create flash animation
lesson learnt: neopets is addictive
new: plot / adventure
lost: interest in working
updated recently: neopets, friendster

1st May marks the day that i devoted myself forever to schatz. it has been 3 years now and it's been a wild ride!! we're still learning each other's habits, feelings, likes and hates.. heheh.. masih belum khatam..

we celebrated our anniversary a week early. we decided to go to langkawi for our 3rd honeymoon! woohoo!! this time is different, we had good companies and more activities than last time!

we rode the cable car to reach to the peak of gunung macincang and we went island hopping.. on the day we went island hopping, schatz had stomachache and he jus watched me go dipping in the sea and the pregnant maiden lake. kesian dia.. as we returned back to our motel, it became worst and he had to go to the clinic.

but wz a lot of rest he recovered the next day. alhamdulillah. but we now had to return home. we wanted to stay longer but we just cant. however, we're already planning for next year's anniversary.. heheh. here are some of the pics..

btw, we arranged an appointment wz the famous Dr. Hamid Arshat this month. kinda suspense dont you think? having to know what is wrong wz you.. hmm.. ikhtiar je la..

-masnie-

My Currents

state: happy!
looking forward to: see Dr. Hamid
task: develop system for dept
lesson learnt: forever love exists..
new: wallet (present from schatz)
lost: car's radio (break-in again!)
updated recently: neopets, friendster, fotopages

last weekend schatz and i took my youngest sis wz her bf to pahang. she's taking her bf to see my dad for the 1st time.

i've not spoken to my dad for awhile. we had an argument. he even told my sis not to come down wz me. *sob* anyway, trying to be a supportive big sister, i led the way to dad's house in pahang. as i pass by his house, there they were.. my lil brother and sister.. playing in the front yard. i didnt see my dad... bummer.

schatz and i left my sister to meet up with abah. i started to get flashbacks on the day that schatz and i went to see abah in 2004. none of my sisters were bothered back then.. i went through it all by myself... the worries, heartaches, anger..

schatz wanted my sis to go thru the hard time we did. but i just can't do tht. i will try my best to help her out.

i love my mom. i love my dad. i'm trying to make them both happy but it's not easy when another person is in the picture. my dad wants me to be nice to his new wife. but how could i when i know that if i do, i'll hurt my mom's feelings.. why cant my dad understand that?!

and now he doesnt want to speak to me unless i apologize to his wife for something tht i didnt do! tht woman really put a spell on him, i tell ya.. what am i to do??

the only thing i can do is to give him some money every month and pray for his safety and forgiveness for any of his sins to Allah. may he wake up from his deep sleep..

ntahlah.. my sister thinks it's an ego thing but it's not. why cant she see that? how can u pretend to be nice to a stranger and at the same time thinking abt how you're hurting someone that you love so much by doing so.. what's it gonna be?

1- be nice to someone who is your mom's enemy and be loved by your dad.

OR

2- just let it be and be loved by your mom. at the same time show your dad that he's loved by sending him money and sending him sms on festive seasons..

ntahlah... life is just so complicated.. malas nak pikir kalo boleh..

-masnie-

My Currents

state: ntahlah
looking forward to: go on my 3rd honeymoon
task: project paper
lesson learnt: im misunderstood..
lost: myself..
updated recently: neopets, friendster

I've been tagged by Baby Ayeen!! am i weird you say? woohoo!!!

RULES: People who are tagged should write a blog post of 6 weird things about them as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says 'you are tagged' in their comments and tell them to read your blog.

So, here goes..

1. i dont like to drink sky juice.. i hate the taste!! but im okay with zam-zam and bottled drinking water not mineral.. there's a big difference ya'know!!

2. I love my cats like family. Yup!! people find it weird when i took Emergency Leave just to see my cat in ward. i dont mind spending hundreds to feed and send them for treatments.. nobody can take away my cats from me!! except Allah of course.

3. I hate listening to malay songs including ERA, Akademi Fantasia and anything involve malay people singing. Some people thinks that i'm not supporting our industry.. malays singer nowadays wanna be like western singers.. hip hop la.. pop la.. they just dont cut it.. menyampah tgk!! some ballads and nasyid boleh layan..

4. I love to drive. i find it fun to drive in a long trip. schatz kinda against it.. when he's around, i cant drive.. bummer!! i'm a fast driver too.. overtaking cars is my thang!

5. i enjoy watching cartoons and animations.. heheh.. some are hillarious, some shows cool gadgets, power and fighting moves, some are suspense.. time to take a break from the real world..

6. i prefer younger friends not to call me kak mas. even my younger sisters dont call me kak. it's not tht im afraid of getting old.. it's just tht as soon as they do call me kak, they will treat me differently.. they wudnt wanna share things like they do with their same-aged friends. i hate that. there wud be some kinda wall between us.

So there goes.. altho the word weird is very subjective. it depends to those ppl who's around you. i only wanna be different. normal is boring..

Okay.. now i have to tag some weird ppl.. heheh.. Im tagging...Elly, Pnut, Ollie, Fid Marul and Zul..

-masnie-

My Currents

state: weird!
looking forward to: go on my 3rd honeymoon
task: project paper
lesson learnt: normal is boring..
lost: half-day break from work..
updated recently: neopets, friendster